2017 was not my finest year and boy was it a long one! I entered the year single and alone and feeling very miserable, in fact I think I actually entered it having a panic attack to be specific. My New Years celebrations were spent in a night club that I didn’t want to be, surrounded by people I didn’t know and didn’t want to know. I actually decided to download a book onto the kindle app on
my phone and read in the nightclub chairs until my friend was ready to leave. I had gone through a break up less than a month before hand and I was not ready to do what I did on New Years, so I started off my year unsure and unhappy. But it’s not all doom and gloom, I will be ending my year very happy and much more sure of where I’m going!
After my shitty start, my year continued to fall apart in places, six people passed away at the start of the year that I knew or was related to. It was rough to say the least and it taught me a lot about being strong and making my own happiness. But I was working in a job I loved as a bookseller and I was looking forward to moving into our new build house in February. We’d been waiting for over a year for this house to be ready and had been living in rented for a while of that wait, so this was a big step for my family to finally move in.
Once I felt more settled, my life started to fall back into place, very slowly. The relationship that ended the previous December was prominent in my mind and I decided to turn it into a friendship, resulting now in me having one of my best friends back and feeling so much happier on a daily basis. It’s taken me a while, but I have got my happiness back recently, so I am very thankful for that. I thought I would have to battle depression at several points in 2017, but I have always managed to pul out of the other end after a lot of struggle.
As much as I loved my job as a book seller, it was a stop gap for me until I found something that would use my degree and pay me more. Thus started my job search until I found my current role as a Digital Marketing Coordinator at an Air Ambulance. I am immensely proud of what I do now and I feel like a valued member of the company. I’m writing this today after getting back from a creative writing workshop with work, so my creativity is excelling!
Once my job, my finances and my relationships started coming together, it was only a matter of time before 2017 started looking up for me. I think it’s only really started to get good from October/November time, but better late than never. I’m sorry if this is just ramblings about my up and down year, but sometimes it’s important to see that I started this year in the worst place possible and now I’m ending it excited about my future and the possibilities.
Here’s to a brilliant 2018 with endless possibilities and smiles!